So I found out I was pregnant in February 2021 at 4 weeks along. My boyfriend at the time (now ex) begged me to get an abortion, even offered me money if I got one. When I told him I couldn’t bring myself to do it, he left straight away. I didn’t hear from him again until someone told him I had had the baby (we live in a small town, word travels fast and I had had my son early at 27 weeks).

To keep a long story short, my son has had many many doctors appts and specialists his whole life due to his prematurity. And when he would go to his dads over night per our court ordered visitation (I have 80% he has 20%), he started falling even further behind in his therapies and started losing weight.

Long story short, I have always had a very hard time sending him to his dads, as his dad lives in his parents basement, doesn’t have a car with a backseat, and spends his free time partying with his friends. He just hasn’t pulled up his dad pants yet…

How do you cope with being away from your baby? Or cope with your baby being with someone you don’t trust? I cry every time I leave him and have a hard time functioning when he’s gone..

Advice?