I think my (soon to be ex) knows ill be divorcing him. I left almost 2 months ago and let him know that I was almost certain I'd be divorcing him but that I needed time and distance to think because when at home I just ended up getting mad and yelling about the lies.

I thought about divorce a month before I even left. But I like to make big decisions slow and he was looped in that whole time.

A month ago I decided on divorce but needed to get some things together. I needed a job, I needed some help, a new bank account, etc.

I plan on telling him Tuesday because its the middle of the week and there would be someone expecting him the next day at work. He always made a point about how I would ruin __ whenever I wanted to talk about how he was treating me. If I picked a fight on the weekend, I ruined his days off. If I did it on Monday, I ruined his week. If I did it near the weekend I still ruined his days off. In the morning I ruined his day. At night I ruined his sleep, in the afternoon I ruined his free time.

For some reason the afternoon of a Tuesday feels the "safest" to me and I plan on recording the call just in case. He wasn't violent to me but was verbally abusive towards the end.

He just sent me a long text about how life is short and that he's so sorry that he lied to us our whole relationship about my dealbreakers and about how he treated me and that he lives me so so much. I know I still need to do this. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about him and I am happy now on my own. Im feeling hopeful for the future my depression and anxiety is 80% less now and I can't believe I put up with it for so long...

But a small part of me still feels sad and maybe a little scared about telling him about the divorce. If I don't do it before the end of the year I have to wait until I get residency in my new state and that will take 9 months. I dont want to wait that long. I want to move on with my life.

TLDR/ My soon to be ex got all sappy and its making me feel about my plans to tell him Tuesday that I'll be filing for divorce. Help pump me up?