Venting .. please be kind.

Im so hurttt my baby's father said he wanted to fix things with me but chose to go out to the to a bar instead of coming to see his baby and I. Then I see videos of him dancing with another woman a little bit ago and a few hours ago he said he went out and it wasn't anything for me to be mad about because he was going to come see me the next day to fix things😔 like whattt???😭 after he had his fun after he chose to go out and be with another woman . It's so hard having to share my baby with him after he kept choosing to drink over us over my baby. My heart hurts .. I'm trying to keep it together for my baby.. but know I need to let it all out to get better . I just wanted my family together again and I get a huge slap in the face how can someone say they miss and love you a week before and then do that ..