Thoughts?

This may sound very selfish and I’m aware of that but how would you feel if your husband drove 4 hours to Mexico to his great grandfather’s funeral while you’re really sick with possible flu/covid. I have the body aches the fever cough all that good stuff and I have my 3 small kids to watch alone bc I live 2 1/2 hours from family. I decided last minute to stay behind bc I’m not feeling good and I don’t want to get anyone sick there. Another thing is I had 3 uncles pass recently back to back and another last December which we didn’t go to bc “it was to far” and their funerals where in the exact town that he’s going to tonight so I didn’t give my condolences to my parents/family until another time. Now we have an actual reason for not going and he says well I want to say my goodbyes to him so I’m going. Yeah I wanted to also to my uncles but I didn’t get to bc YOU said it was to far to go. Im very hurt that he left bc now im here feeling like complete 💩 while caring alone for my kids and bc I didn’t attend any of my families funerals these last 2-3 years. Maybe im being selfish and jealous or my reasons are valid?