Just vent... got a false positive today

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I've been trying over a year for baby #2. Currently waiting for referrals to infertility and I'm just at a loss today!!! I got a false positive on a wondfo and started tearing up... praying to God it was real. Took 5 more negative... took a first response negative (all the same pee) so obviously it was a false positive. I'm just at a loss, I'm thankful I have one child but I want a sibling for him more than anything in this world. I am so close to my sisters and want to give him that special bond too... but now they are going to be so far apart if I ever even get pregnant at this point. It's all so weird because I got pregnant the first time trying with my first and yet here we are 🥹😔.