Depression

I’m 19 weeks pregnant. This entire process has been a very lonely one for me it feels. This morning the weight of it all just won and I can’t help but to cry. I feel like I’ve been crying for hours. I feel so misunderstood and not heard. I feel like I have no option but to bottle everything up. I am always calm and understanding and accommodating but I never receive the same grace. I feel like a stranger to my body and the world around me. I used to take SSRI’s from age 12 to 19 but I stopped. I was also seeing a shrink from age 11-13. I don’t know if I can take anything while pregnant but I’ll be discussing it with my midwife this week. I am tired of trying to manage these feelings on my own with no one to turn to.