I've had a dream since was a child that l'd be a mom one day. It's the thing I want the most. I meet my boyfriend freshman year in high school. We've currently been together for 9 years. My boyfriend really wants kids too. He wants to wait until we move out but the way things are the market it way too expensive. We currently live with his mom.

We aren't trying but we aren't doing much to prevent pregnancy. Im extremely depressed that my dream will never come true. Im currently 25 and I want my cut off to be 30 for having kids due to the risk being higher once you turn 30. Higher risk of losing my baby or other health issues. If I'm going to have multiple kids l'm running out of time. I don't want to have them back to back I want to wait at least a couple years in between. I know a lot of people have kids after they turn 30 but I wanted to have kids young. I would have had them at 18 if I could. I've just fallen into a deep depression because the one thing that l've always wanted most likely will never happen now. Has any one else felt like this or had experience like this?