I’m almost 9 weeks pregnant and I announced my pregnancy to my mom when i was just 5 weeks, she immediately turned the other cheek and her energy drastically changed towards me ever since telling her. She went on to tell my dad, even though I specifically asked her not to until i was 12 weeks, because I knew they’d shove abortion down my throat or wish for the worst to happen to me regarding my pregnancy.

My two other siblings have children already and this wouldn’t be their first grandchild, so it isn’t anything foreign to them. When my brothers announced they were having babies, they weren’t thrilled but they still supported them through a lot. I’ve immediately became the black sheep and have had them turn their backs on completely.

Any time I ask for help with short rides to my doctors appointments every 2-3 weeks, they make a fuss, although they’ve helped my brother with an entire vehicle and helped my other brother with paying off a 1,200 dollar ticket fine from speeding. I never ask them for anything like that. I’m 6,000 dollars in debt and I haven’t even thought about asking them for help with that. They’ve made it clear I’m on my own and they want no parts.

Today I asked if she could help me prepare a dish for a future potluck I plan to attend, and she told me no, that I should figure it out for myself. I thought it’d be a fun idea to do together, and I was totally brushed off. I feel like I have no one. You truly learn who’s really there for you and who loves you when you’re pregnant. And the ones closest to you seem to reveal how much they really don’t care for you when these things happen. My co-workers and forms of leadership at work have shown more support than anyone if i’m being honest. I hate my life, and I hate that this is the family im inviting my baby into…

I truly feel like im experiencing this on my own, and it’s such a lonely feeling.