i’m just looking for any advice that might have helped y’all in a similar situation. this year has been so hard on me… my now ex was so manipulative and cheated on me multiple times with my friends, girls i used to be close with. i tried leaving him a couple times but he was so manipulative and emotionally abusive, love bombed and begged me to stay and that he was gonna change, yk classic narcissist shit but he never did change…

anyways i did love him a lot and in april i was in a really bad car accident that should’ve killed me, i was in the hospital for weeks and broke hella bones n fractured my skull it was really bad. i can confidently say last summer was the worst couple months of my entire life. after i came home from the hospital, he cheated on me twice. we argued every other day. i started therapy again because he made me feel like there was something genuinely wrong with me that made me impossible to love. i was broke because i had to quit my job after the accident. i didn’t have a car because it got totaled in the accident. we broke up and got back together like 3 times that summer, it was so fucking toxic. in august we officially broke up and it feels like my life is falling apart. i dropped out of school because my mental health completely plummeted i was fr gonna kms or get arrested…

i just need advice or motivation, anything :( i like to think i’m a pretty strong person because i have dealt with many other hardships, but i am human. i’ve never been in a relationship so toxic before, and the accident was just the cherry on top. the break up gave me zero closure, he broke up with me in a 30 second phone call as he was about to walk into a frat party and then blocked me on everything.