My partner had sex with me even though I said I did not want to. This hurt me a lot the one person that I expected to not hurt me like that did. They did it the day before the anniversary of my sexual assault date. Which hurt me more. He said that he was sorry and that he was so turned on he couldn’t resist. I know that isn’t an excuse but I am not sure why but I forgave him. But he has been asking me to give him oral but I can’t bring myself to do it honestly I still feel hurt but I am not sure why I can’t leave.