Been together two Years Only been married going on a year I can write a whole book about everything but I’ll be here all Night this year had been a night mare. From him going to jail I payed 15thousand for lawyer and saved him 8 years. Help him gain joint custody of his son, fixed his car bought him a new one. We became homeless building was condemned and then lost new car and then lost our baby recently. Our marriage is falling apart I’m already damaged I have ptsd anxiety and depression from my past life. He tells me to leave past in past but the mental emotional abuse he does 😩😩😩

Fast forward:

It got to the point we need marriage counseling or ima walk away. When u feel ur at a breaking point do you stay and try make it work or move on.! I haven’t found a counselor yet but looking into it. My husband is a insecure, narcissist, manipulator, bipolar and skitso. 😩🤦🏼‍♀️

We have no kids together I lost ours on thanksgiving he has a three going on four year old from his past..

we been ok lately trying to cope and get along no one in has family reached out to me, his mom called today and said she been trying reach me which is lies: I said I haven’t received anything I can print out my call log since I’m a lier my husband called me. and then he just blacked out on me went into other room I over Hurd him talking to his moms Crap it hurt my feeling like if u so miserable with me then wtf we doing. Besides my husband his family too be doing to much I’m the one suffering I’m hurting I just recently lost our baby. I spoke up and dislike what he said like why is it u always talk shit to ur family instead of saying something nice I do and some so much for him and his son . He gets upset with someone takes it out on me said we really need help counseling or a damn divorce and he blacked out told me get my shit get out. Now or he throwing it outside. He threw a bottle at me I told him he needs help he sick, Then starts throwing shoes at me I went into the bathroom, I’m locked in bathroom said when he done throwing shit at me I’ll leave. Currently still locked in here. I been so patient with him and understanding and by his side for everything and his little boy I helped him gain joint custody I never knew he was this way till after marriage.

Am I wrong for not even giving counseling a try I’m scared he won’t even let me say things and ima always be in the wrong and the bad guy smfh #sincerelyDamagesSoul

Idk what to do anymore it’s not health it’s toxic it’s gone to far. Is marriage counseling worth it can he change can we get better idk anymore help….

just currently cryin my eyes out. I already turned to self hurt to take the pain away from him.! I honestly be wanting to save us but I can’t even save myself I feel low worthless and don’t I even understand my Existence any more