please. i beg anyone to listen to me. idk what to do or what to think. for two years of my life i was full on depressed and tried killing myself multiple times. no one cared. not one single family member or friend cared. i was too ashamed to get help so i dealt with it myself. this went on for two years then all of sudden i was finally happy. i loved my life. i was so happy. i thought i finally moved past my depression. thought it was finally over. i was fucking ecstatic. and then just like how i was all of a sudden happy. i was depressed again. out of nowhere. it was worse than last time. i really thought it was over. and yet again not one single person cared. this shit keeps happening over and over again. one day i’m so happy with my life. thinking my depression is finally over. then after some weeks/months i get depressed again out of the blue. it won’t stop. this is hurting me so bad. i can’t control it. i just want to be able to take control of this. i can’t keep living like this