I feel guilty feeling this way hence why I’m venting here and also just curious to see if anyone relates…

Since having my baby (8 weeks ago) I feel so resentful to my partner. It’s not his fault he does what he can, nappies and helps cleaning the house and works etc but I feel so frustrated that he gets free time. I feel like I’m juggling his needs and the babies needs so much Ive neglected myself. Which I guess is my own fault. When baby is sleeping he gets to go out and do his things upstairs etc and I just never get the chance. My son won’t settle anywhere but me and when I leave the room- when my partner tries to give me just 5 mins- he cries and cries and cries. It felt special at first that I was the only person that Could calm him but I wish my partner could too. Sometimes I just want to make a dinner that isn’t freezing cold or a microwave meal but it’s not possible. My partner does stuff for me but it’s not about the food etc it’s about being able to do something for myself and have a break from being a mum. I feel terrible saying this. I love my son more than anything in the world.

Another issue is the nights, I EBF so my partner sleeps a lot more than me naturally. The last week baby will only settle on my boob. I tried removing him and he screams and I can’t fall asleep with him there so I just stay awake for hours. Starting at nothing. And I can hear my partner lightly snoring and I hate it. I just feel like I deserve the sleep. I deserve a little bit of freedom. I’m day 6 of not washing hair. I’m covered in sick. I stink lol.

He has a nice new haircut, got to go out for a while yesterday, plays online with friends etc.

He is the most involved a person can be (in our situation) and I constantly thank him and don’t blame him for any of these feelings. I know I’m unreasonable and sound like a stroppy teenager. But deep down, I can’t help resent him a bit, just a little bit.