Sick mom

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You guys I feel so depressed πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜” my mom had 2 strokes , diabetes,high blood pressure (264 was her last big reading) congestive heart failure, and now kidney failure. πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜” My mom was rushed to the hospital with chest pains only to find out that her kidneys had failed her. The doctors said that she would need immediate surgery to insert a port catheter into her chest, or the toxins in her body would kill her. Seeing my mom in a hospital bed with less than 15% of her kidneys functioning, I fell apart. My mom at first didn't want it. The doctor was saying to me that if she didn't want it then she can't be forced to get it because she is an adult and we can only do so much so if she doesn't want it then we have to let her be meaning (let her die) I was devastated!😭😭😭 Then, to add more problems on top of that, only 1 relative came to see my mom in the hospital and he only came because his siblings told him to go. He was there for 15 minutes or less then left saying that he was going to the hospital cafeteria. My mom started crying when he went to the door. He told her be a woman about it and stop all of that and that he'll be right back..then he called saying that his head hurts from seeing her that way that he couldn't come back in there but don't tell my mom. I was broken again then my aunt avoided calling my mom to help her although she's a registered nurse. πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜” She didn't call to check on my mother once! She told my uncle that it was because she was having a hard time seeing family in the hospital. Then I was lied on by the nurse. My mother was bleeding out from the neck acting weird to me. I wake up, and find my mama was bleeding the bed sheets out. I call for help and the raggedy ass secretary lied daying to the nurse that I took care of it and no longer need her assistance. Also, once my "boyfriend" found out that no one in my family was coming to see my mom, he throwed it into my face 2 hours one day and everyday after that. Not having any help with my mom and being in a situation where I want out but can't get out is a nightmare. I just need someone to give me some clear sincere advice so that I can feel better. Right now, I feel like shit. Nobody in my family showed my mom real love while she was in that hospital. Only friends of ours came by and did that. Anyone have anything that they wish to say as a form of encouragement?? I'll appreciate it