What’s your opinion?

So long story short I’ve delt w so much in my life such as ptsd from stuff happening to my sister whom has disabilities plus is young in the mind but is 21 yrs old today. And our own brother sexually abused her growing up and tried to do stuff with me as well when I was about 5 to 11 but thankfully I would fight back and now I just live wirh the fear since I have two daughters. My sister is traumatized and really going through shit such as dating older men. Runs the streets etc. Now it’s 2022 almost 2023 and I had so much happen in my life. I’ve lost a child my first born and I still suffer from that and it’s been hard for me. Because I look at others and my brother is happily married gets to travel. Goes on road trips buys all these things. It’s like he gets a free life. My mom always acts like he’s better than me. And it really hurts because he gets to live this happy life whike others suffers from ptsd from shit he did to us. Now I find out him & his wife are going to be god parents to a 5 yr old. It really hit my chest. I mean hard as in my daughter is sleeping right next to me I’m not letting go. Remind you his wife will act like when my daughter turns 5 she can come over to there house alone. I said no fucking way. I’m stressed out and I never get to rant. I have so much more support with my husband but no one else. It’s really hard.. 🥺🙏🏻