All my bags are packed I’m ready to go my throat and neck are soar my whole body is.! I already suffer from PTSD, anxiety, depression, before my marriage form my past but after I married him he show new colors and I believe hes a manipulator and a narcissist 🤦🏼‍♀️😩 Last night we got in to a physical altercation he’s already mentally & emotionally abused me when he goes from 0-100 he don’t control himself we said we gonna do marriage counseling after our last fight but beyond the toxic it’s now physical he choked me last night said he wanted to kill me🥺 and stayed out all night. We got into a big fight over nothing then he comes walking in the door after 9 am sees all my stuff packed tried to act like we somewhat ok. I decided we will have his talk later after church via zoom. He try’s to argue with me cuz he wanted pass me something I don’t partake in during church. Five minutes in I get a phone call interrupting everything it was actually Marriage Counseling 💍 is calling to set up Marriage Counseling 💍 session. We have our first appointment tomorrow. my husband really wants to do this but I’m having second thoughts about it. Has anyone be honest and toxic marriage or where it became physical and because you’re able to hear and work on it move past it rebuild and save the marriage ??? Please🥺 idk 🤷‍♀️