I feel like I’m drowning..

I just need someone to talk to.. lately I feel like my life has been falling apart. I’m tired of being the strong friend, daughter, mother and wife. I have no one to go to when I need.. at least I feel that way. I looked at pictures of my babies today.. and literally realized they are the only reason I want to be alive at this point. And no I wouldn’t.. it’s just a thought. Like maybe things would be better if I was just not here anymore. My marriage has been a battle. We constantly fight but at the same to we are both fighting to get things right. No one talks about how hard parenting is when you’re trying to figure out your own emotions.. or how hard marriage is when you never had a good example. Everything is hard and I hate for my children to see us upset. I don’t want them to grow up and be emotional unstable due to us causing them trauma. Granted they’re still pretty young so we’re trying to figure this out before we cause too much trauma. Idk I just need to let this all out. Just a mom that’s over stimulated.. touched out and tired.