abortion at 17

i accidentally got pregnant from my boyfriend because the condom broke. i took plan b right after but it didn’t work. i don’t have the time, money, space, or mental heath for a child right now so me and my boyfriend decided on getting an abortion. but we have a really good relationship and both wish we could have the baby. i can’t stop thinking about what this kid would be like and i already love it. we are definitely gonna have kids together when we’re older we just can’t have a baby now. i just don’t know if i can mentally handle losing this baby. it feels like a part of me and my boyfriend. i don’t know what to do, any advice?