Pregnancy is so stressful. This is my third time making it to 12 weeks yet each pregnancy is still riddled with anxieties. Today I thought I had lost this baby. Doc was fooled too. When he couldn’t Doppler baby he took me to ultrasound and still wasn’t finding a heartbeat. Finally, after he said he was sorry and couldn’t see the heartbeat, he says, “Wait! No! Over here!” And there was my baby wriggling around up high and to the left in my pelvis. Obviously I was crying through all of this. I had influenza A a couple weeks ago and was quite ill. I have been worried ever since that this baby might not be ok. Only the headaches, nausea, fatigue, and migraines have been giving me hope.

My first pregnancy I had a subchorionic hematoma and was told by the midwife that I had a miscarriage. Over Christmas weekend. Laid in bed crying that holiday. Long story short, that little one is 6 years old now :)

Sorry for the rant. I’m just having all the feels today. 😮‍💨