I got an ex who cheated on me treated me like crap but now I manage to still be around to text him daily and talk like we are friends. he was jealous in the relationship and insecure. Recently he wanted to help someone out a female by letting her be a roommate for a month. Some random stranger. He was shocked I’m not mad about it. I told him why would I be ?

These are two diff ppl ****

I have a fwb. Been knowing each other like 15 years. I swear like the love of my life. We stopped our fwb stuff before I got in a relationship. I took a step back and we didn’t even talk for years when I was in a relationship. I came back into his life 3 years ago pouring my feelings out and he poured his out too. I swear it’s like he’s the one for me. Recently he got a roommate too. Someone living in his living room a femaIe friend on an air mattress.. I told him if he needed money I understand. He said she gonna be there a month. I told him I don’t feel comfy coming over etc and someone in the living room and etc cause I would spend every weekend with him etc. he said she would be gone in a month. It’s been 3 months now she still there.

These are the only ppl I talk to. I came to realize like seriously.. what the hell am I doing ???? I feel like I need actual friends honestly I don’t know , feeling blah and ranting just had a reality check like what the hell am I doing ?????