Just needing to vent, I'm totally feeling unappreciated and like I'm basically worthless and a POS. My boyfriend has some kind of issues with reorganizing furniture almost daily and at the most odd of times, past midnight overnight hours... We have 7 month old twins and they wear me out physically as I have health issues along with my mental health problems... Anyways, he's basically a hoarder always accumulating stuff in bulk we don't need and then clutters the living room, rooms etc... I don't know where the hell to put his things because they're tools and random things, I do put what I can away tho... Anyways, I stay awake with our son who doesn't sleep as well as our daughter and my boyfriend knocks out so I'm the one waking up with them for diaper changes, bottles etc... Then he wakes me from my nap time when I try to nap with the babies, he clearly sees me asleep and will come inside asking me if I'm sleeping "again" mind you when the hell did I ever actually sleep if I was up all night basically with our son and daughter?!! He comes in loud and wakes them up!! He doesn't like when I do have free time, for me to watch my favorite TV shows or listen to music because it's not productive!! He wants to be moving furniture all the freaking time claiming he isn't going to move it from that spot again!! Ugh 😫 I was waiting for him to come inside from his smoke break, and I wanted to shower. He told me we'll rearrange once you're out.. well I remembered I hadn't had time to do my DBT homework and tomorrow is group so I needed to work on it.. he mutters under his breath thanks a lot now I'm stuck doing this shit all alone again!!! Like I cooked, cleaned up dishes, swept, vacuumed, washed bottles, sorted, folded and put away laundry... Wasn't that enough for today? Besides of course helping with our babies. I was having a bad pain day/fibromyalgia he let me sleep in until 1pm but I didn't actually get to sleep until around 8 am due to my son, anyways I wasn't crabby I got up cooked, cleaned and fed the babies, meanwhile he's shoveling snow... He was fine with me doing group therapy but has now told me if in a year once group is done then I'm not a better woman to him one of us is gone!! Says he's only kept me around this long since I'm the one who gave birth to his twins, like wtf? Does he even love me? Also who the hell rearranges furniture evey day!!!!!??? I'd like to know it's not just me dealing with this. Sorry long post had to vent. Here I sit feeling like 💩