play it safe or follow the unknown

Jav • hands in the air, it's good to be alive.🤘🏽

I have been with my boyfriend/ best friend for about seven years now. I moved to California about two years ago and he has been loyal and patient now being in a long distant relationship with myself. I wanted to move to California, coming from the East Coast, to live with my twin sister, to live in sunny warm California which I have always romanticized, and I know this is far-fetched but my sister is out here for acting so who knows maybe we can get a gig together or a contract even, I mean we are very adorable and there’s two of us. The thing is I am 26 as is my boyfriend and he would like to get married in a couple of years. In his world we would live together for a couple years before getting engaged and then getting married. He has a great life in the East Coast, he has a good paying job, a nice car and a nice house. with that being said, being raised EXTREMELY well my whole life (aka being spoiled and overly loved) and being babied in the relationship which is something that I do appreciate and feel like I will not find elsewhere, I don’t know if I should just end things with him because we’ve been holding onto each other for so long or stay out here for one more year and move back with him. If I would move back with him in a year I definitely would miss California and I would miss the possibility of becoming “something” with my twin sister. but then again there are plenty of rich and famous celebrities who are not happy in their life and actually quite depressed. What if I do become “something” but I always miss him and never find a guy who is as great as him? I am scared that either way I will dwell and be resentful and heartbroken at any of my decisions. People say to break up with him and if we’re really meant to be together we will be and that’s what I believe too but he said he doesn’t believe in fairy tales which kind of gets my hopes down. I can admit I am scared to not be with him we’ve been together for so long and I love them too much. I know I’m being a little selfish and scared but I really think he’s the one and I want to be his wife however I just am not done having fun here in California. 😞 #confused