I’m leaving my kids behind

My husband wants to separate after 10 years for someone else. I’m not going to be struggling single mom so I’m going to leave our two kids with him. I havent worked for years. Before you judge one of my kids as adhd and our 3 year old just got diagnosed with autism. I go back and forth between extensive therapy’s, doctors appointments and services for them so I didn’t have the time to work. In the end I don’t regret staying at home with them even though I’m almost 30 with no job experience and credits for retirement. I really hope one day the will be able to understand and forgive me.