A little background. Married 10 years and have two kids. One is 5 and one is two months, so it’s her first Christmas. I’m a SAHM by my husbands choice.

My husband and I are both only children and both sets of our parents are passed away. So really the only family we have is each other.

Ever since our oldest knew what Christmas was (around 2 years old) my husband has “coincidentally” been in an awful mood for both Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and Christmas Day. I have theorized it’s because he felt he was no longer center of attention anymore. It’s gotten to the point where he doesn’t even get up in the morning to watch our daughter open presents. He always maintained that Christmas morning wasn’t a big deal in his house growing up so he doesn’t understand why he needs to be awake to watch her open gifts when he could be catching up on sleep. This year we had our second daughter and she’s not a good sleeper. I’m running on fumes and of course last week my husband got sick. He finally kicked it over the weekend but the day he felt better, it got me and I’ve felt awful since. It’s not covid of the flu thankfully. Very respiratory with muscle aches and intense cough etc. Being sick and barely sleeping ha been hard for me. Since my husband is off work for Christmas until Tuesday I asked him last night if he could get up with our 5 year old and open her Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> box with her this morning. I knew she would be excited and wake up extra early. I told him I was feeling really sick and really needed to catch up on sleep. Side note; he has never once gotten up at night with either of our kids and sleeps through the night every night. 10 hours. Every single night. Still complains he’s constantly tired but he’s just lazy.

Anyway this morning rolls around and our 5 year old jumped out of bed at 6am so excited for Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> and for daddy to go open her Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> box of goodies with her. After about 10 minutes I hear her crying. I go downstairs holding my screaming infant who’s hungry, to see what’s going on. I find my husband, asleep on the couch with the bedding from the guest bedroom set up on the couch. My daughter told me her dad told her to open her Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> box alone because he was tired and when she cried from disappointment he told her to be quiet and to stop acting like a baby, then proceeded to roll back over and go back to sleep again. I was FURIOUS. My daughter was so heartbroken. I opened the box with my daughter, set her up with her Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> breakfast at the table and told him I needed to speak with him in our bedroom. I told him how he handled the situation was disgusting and pathetic and all she wanted was to spend time with him and as I’m saying this he’s trying to GET BACK IN OUR BED TO GO BACK TO SLEEP. Telling me he doesn’t care and saying things like “ok I’m a bad person, yep, yep? I agree with you”. I told him he has destroyed yet another Christmas and at that point he got up, he packed a bag with clothes and left the house without his phone. He said “who knows when I’ll be back, I just ruin every Christmas” before he left. Our bank account shows he took himself to Starbucks right after he left but that’s all I know about what he’s doing. Like I said he has no family or friends to stay with so I have no idea where he is or what he’s doing. I’m so sad that we have to spend our Christmas alone but I think it will be a lot more peaceful. Focusing on my babies today then will work out logistics in the new year 😩