Maybe I’m overthinking some part of this..

over Thanksgiving, we told my fiancés family we were expecting. His whole family was there and we were all excited.

A week before this vacation we are on now, I had my first Dr appointment and I’ve lost the baby. So my d&c is scheduled for Jan 9th after we get back. My fiancé (whom I’m marrying in less then 48 hours) told all of his family to please not bring it up on our vacation because it’s obviously painful and I’m heartbroken. I just can’t wrap my mind around it.

Tonight on our vacation, we are all sitting around the table and his brother looks at his mom and wife and goes, should we tell them? And they both are like tell what? So he goes the surprise, we need to tell them. So we are all waiting to see what he says and he goes how do you feel about becoming a grandma again? Because we are expecting.

To which his wife who is looking shocked says no, that’s not the case. There’d have to be a whole new dad because you are snipped. I didn’t know what to say or do so I just sat there awkwardly. Why say anything like that and joke about it? I felt like it was a really low and fucked up blow to me. Is it just me? I’m still really emotional about this and I contemplated even going. My fiancé said how about we drop it when he kept at it. I just want to cry.