Today I am feeling just really down and out and need to get it off my chest. Today my fiancé asked to go to the Hookah bar with his friend after work which of course I don’t mind but deep down inside I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel jealous of him and his friends. I’m a SAHM and 17 weeks pregnant. Every night he’s on games and if I ask to hang out with him I’m greeted with “I don’t just want to watch tv” and that he’d rather play games, so I’m left on the couch by myself on my phone and if you think I’m exaggerating every night, I’m not. On his days off I’ll ask if we can go to lunch or date night and he says he’d rather just get the food delivered but then the night ends with him on games with his friends. During the day he is off or off early he’s usually on this one spot on the couch scrolling on YouTube while I tend to our daughter unless I bug him to put his phone down. I’m dying for attention. I’m dying for intimacy. I’m dying for one on one time like his freaking friend gets. They get his undivided attention while half the time when I talk I’m talking to him as he’s looking at his phone screen. I’ve been crying a lot and I know it’s mostly due to pregnancy hormones but why can’t I have the attention his friends get?

I’ve posted on here before about this and I’ve been told that I’m wrong and he needs time to relax after work, I get that. But there comes a point where this is unfair to me so please if you’re going to say “give him a break” or something along those lines, don’t.