broken and I don’t know how to fix it. I lost feelings for my husband. We have zero bond and I honestly find myself wishing to be single but I don’t want to hurt my young children. There have been so many last incidents that caused my feelings to shift. My husbands actually been trying now but I have not been. I feel bad. I don’t really know what the next step is. He’s starting to mope and pout around that I don’t give him the attention he wants. Today was my 30th birthday and it just felt so not special. I wanted it to be a nice day with my family but nothing really turned out. For his bdays I go all out but for mine it was minimal efforts. I guess I’m just venting. I seriously have no friends or anyone really. He’s all I have besides my children. I keep trying to focus on the good but it’s hard.