So I found out at 12 weeks that we lost our little “Bruno”. Devastating to say the least, I then had to tell my 2 young daughters who were so excited that mommy wasn’t going to have a baby.

We took the girls out to the trampoline park to distract them and while there I started having pains ( I didn’t jump) went to the restroom and of course nature decided that was the moment to release. I had heavy bleeding but just slight cramping.

Came home laid down and prepared to be in major pain, it didn’t come just everything else.

Woke up yesterday and felt off but was okay. Pain had started and cramping had started. While sitting in my office trying to work, I felt like I needed to throw up, while walking upstairs away from my girls ( didn’t want them to see me) I felt this SHARP pain on my right side! I can take pain but this!!!!!!! I went from cooking breakfast to working to not being able to sit up straight!

I just knew something was wrong! I then started throwing up and shaking, I called my husband who had left for work but got no answer, I was forced to call my son who was downstairs, I hated that I had to call him but I knew something was wrong. He called my mother in love when I started throwing up stomach bile. I was sick!!!

He called the ambulance, MiL was on her way and I started trying to get dressed. By now I’m shaking, cold, crying and in severe pain.

EMTs show up and I explain what is happening, my bp is through the roof! They are honest and tell us that the ER is backed up, based on priority I would be in pain there for hours before being seen for them to tell me this is just a normal process and I would have to allow my body to purge. We made the choice to stay home where at least I was in my own bed. My MiL got me a hot water bottle, I threw up all medication given and then my body just gave out to the pain!!! I didn’t even know that your body can be in that much pain where it just shuts down! I slept for 7 hrs!! Woke up and felt so much better! Crazyyyyyy!! I’ve had miscarriages before but this was painful to the next level!!! I’m not sure I want to try again for our last love child. The heartache, the disappointment and yesterday the miscarriage from hell! ( I’m sure others may have had worst but for me, it was horrible )