Finally booked my abortion today for 3rd and I feel so relieved it’s like a weight is lifted over my shoulders that this pregnancy is almost over

I honestly think I feel this way because my pregnancy was a result of rape I wasn’t conscious I barely remember anything from that night it’s barely effected me recently the only thing left of my rapist was this fetus and I know I grew resentful of it but I just want to move on so I think this is a step in the right direction