I’ve dealt with so many mental disorders for my entire life. I’m at my end with it. I’m 23 years old and didn’t think I’d live to see today. I have a four month old baby. I had a rough pregnancy but she’s been great and I love her more than anything. I know my hormones are everywhere but I’ve been like this for so long and I just can’t take anymore. I don’t know what to do I’m seriously at a loss. I’m so scared of getting help because I’ll lose my baby. No one will trust me with her again. I question if I should even be in her life and loving her isn’t enough for me to be better. I take medication but it’s not enough. I can’t afford counseling and can’t talk to family because they would take her away too. I feel absolutely crazy and I want the best for her. I’m starting to think that’s somewhere other than with me but I can’t bring myself to give her up or get the help I need. Sorry just venting..