I remember high school and graduation and signing up for college and I thought okay this is my moment to become a adult I was so lost I was like how do I make friends in college how do I pass this class how do I get all the work done I had a boyfriend how can I take exam class work homework online work assignments and have a job and have time for a boyfriend learn how to drive, deal with coworkers and the job, learn how to cook.

It all made me feel like I was on a roller coaster ride I couldn't get off of honestly I needed a mentor or life coach I should have worked more and got money to hire someone to give me directions on the goals that I wanted. Now it's been ten years since I was a seventeen year old teenager that graduated from highschool and I feel like where the hell did that time go?

The twenties were such a blur but I'm still young and fun but I'm not forever 21 and it like I'm in denial about aging I want to hang out with the college sororities and have fun with the 18-25 age group but I'm older I was just thinking about a teacher and I was thinking is she still alive or did she die of old age and she was young once and had this career but I wonder if she did everything she wanted to do in life and how quickly people get older and I'm thinking about all the women I graduated with were not hot young women now we are Yes Ma'am how can I help you I remember I was helping at the college campus I was twenty seven and this 24 year old called me ma'am and I called her ma'am back and she about started crying telling me she doesn't want to be old. This is how I feel it's like I wish there was a drink to stay young

I get worried people are boring as they get older and I see how people don't like older adults because they think they are boring there's this youth group at my church and I asked to join I'm 29 and they said I'm the oldest in the group that I shouldn't join it's mostly 18-24 but when they age they will get older and have that group but what about me I feel excluded and it's like now I'm a chaperon if they go someplace fun since I'm an adult I'm the chaperon and I don't know aging sucks grey hairs and thinking about menopause and all the aging things how do you deal with it!