Should I test

Hi,

I recently lost my daughter who was stillborn and decided that in terms of having another baby what will be will be so haven’t been using contraception.

I’ve been <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a> etc and I’m now 13dpo and due on my period today but no sign as yet.

I’m now terrified to test. I’m going away tonight for a week so I don’t know wether it’s better to test today or wait until we get back.

I’m so torn over how to feel about it all