TW: postpartum hemorrhage

I am 23 weeks and feel very anxious about birth this time around. I went into my first birth so happy go lucky and naive, only to clot and bleed pretty seriously requiring intervention. It was traumatizing at the time even though it was resolved and treated. Apparently my uterus did not contract enough and I just learned that means I am at risk for it happening again.

What have you done to help second birth anxiety? I was so strong mentally the first time and was able to do an unmedicated natural birth, but now I am so scared it’s going to happen again and worst case I won’t be here for my daughters, that’s my worst fear 😔 I need to get mentally strong for this birth