Just try to share and find help

Good morning ! I just want to share something with you. I was sooooio trying to conceive my third baby and everything seems to go great until previous week. The thing is my hormones were in a BADDDDD condition my two kids at the house at a mad situation my body soul and everything else were so down that I couldn’t handle another pregnancy . Or this is what I thought ! I was so convinced that I didn’t want this pregnancy . So we take an abortion . The minute I went out of the hospital I was devastated. I couldn’t believe how I did this to this little creature and to my body . My God and my baby forgive me one day . Now , I’m trying to heal my body and soul in order not to get mad .

I so want another baby but I cannot believe what I was thinking of .

If anyone has suffer something similar I would love you to share and help me get through this .

Thank you and I’m sorry 🥺