Does this mean something wrong with me?

When I broke up with my boyfriend, I was so upset I moved across the country thinking it would make me feel better but I feel lost and uncomfortable and extremely lonely

I’m a good housemate. I’m clean and tidy, but I always feel so anxious living with strangers. When I’m cooking, I feel so socially anxious. I’ve tried being friendly and eating in the living room sometimes, but I feel awkward and unhappy. I feel like I get in peoples way so I cook quick meals and try and stay out the way. I work from home too so stuck in my room all day. I hate it, really want my own space but it’s too expensive in London. I feel like I can’t connect to anyone as I’m always trying to be on best behaviour

When I go back to my parents house, my anxiety instantly eases. I feel like myself again. I feel excited to cook, and bake and have music on. I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me. I used to have my own place and i loved having guests and friends over and I’m too scared to even do that in shared houses.

I don’t know if it steps from a house share where I had a narcissistic housemate who loved me in the beginning and one day decided she hated me and wouldn’t communicate what I had done wrong. I picked up people pleasing tendencies.

I live with 6 other girls and most of them don’t talk to you when you’re in the kitchen and it doesn’t feel nice