Its hard to find someone loyal and committed. Ive had an ex i was in love with, who on paper was perfect and at first meeting anyone would think was charming. But throughout my pregnancy, he was messaging girls and trying to sleep with them. Even messaged a man, turns out he was bi, and lied to me about that. There were at least 50+ women i found out about. Exchanging nudes and whatnot. And not a fee years later, i have a recent ex. Who wasnt perfect, but damn. I thought he was nearly. Always got me flowers, took me out on dates. Showered me with attention and love. Did and said the right things. Had many plans together. Said i was the only one. Turns out an old fuck buddy from the past, he still must be in love with because i saw them messaging. He never cheated, but she was always there, they did message behind my back, her unknowing. But they messaged for a few days during our relationship, not sexual but still. And NOW? He says he still loves me and im the only one for him and he swears hes not talking to anyone else. Then a few minutes later i caught him messaging her after months asking her to go over to his house. Im not saying this to get him back, i just wonder if there really is a man out there that is 100% loyal and committed like i am. Even someone as good of a guy as him had the audacity to lie about another woman. I just dont get it. I will have the hardest time trusting again. And even people in relationships i know seem to flirt with others, and i see married people for years get divorced due to cheating. I just am over it and i will die happily single if needed. But is every man like this? Like fuck. I am traumatized. Ive had more bad experiences, but you get the point