I had a very traumatic birth that ended in an emergency c section and I didn't get to see my baby for hours because my blood pressure dropped extremely low and made me sick. So from the beginning my breast feeding journey had a rough start and I had to supplement with formula the entire time, I have never produced enough to exclusively breastfeed. My son is now two months old and I just feel torn. I want to stop breastfeeding all together because I hate pumping and my breasts just feel tired and look terrible and I feel used up mentally and physically..but at the same time I don't want to stop because I feel good about him at least getting some breastmilk and I feel selfish if I take that away from him. I also feel like it's helped us bond and feel close and I know it's comforting to him. So basically I'll be sad and feel like a terrible mother if I stop and I'll feel stressed and deflated if I keep going. I just need to vent here and maybe hear what some of you have done or think.