Do you feel this way?

Do you ever feel emotionally and mentally drained in your relationship? Do you ever feel helpless like no matter what new technique you try to use with your partner doesn’t work ? Because they fail to try or to change their behavior no matter what… do you feel like you sacrificed everything in your life for your partner ?.. like your young years, what you could’ve had in life, your sanity, heart ache and a BUNCH of bullshit you never ever had to deal with.. do you feel like you’re in the sammmme argument and bullshit fight almost EVERY FUCKIN DAY. You can literally spell out in bold letters how you expect to be treated and how to handle you, but your partner still doesn’t know the answer to 1+1… are you holding on for your kids ? Are you holding on to prove people wrong who were against your relationship? Are you holding on because it SUCKS to start over after you invested almost 7 years of your life ? How do you change what you think is a toxic pattern going on? And you have to think fast!! Because there is little ones watching us in the household.. and I wouldn’t want them to get too big to understand what’s going on. You want to love this man, be there for this man, especially knowing he has no one really in life… but all that damage and hurt.. he’s not really healed. He’s truly a narcissist and I blame that on his evil wicked mother who robbed him from a childhood. I dreamed of nothing more than two loving parents in the SAME household for my two beautiful children… because that’s what I wished for on 10 birthday cakes as I blew my candles out, for my parents to be together again. I’m a drained, hurt, emotionally broken woman and mother. this man’s mother has put me through HELL and back, disrespected me and wish us the worst. But sometimes this man has that in him… don’t get me wrong he’s not always bad!!! I see his good.. I see his friendly.. I see his caring.. I see his romantic side.. I see his loving side.. but when it’s bad, it’s BAD. I feel like too often than none.. I been getting into praying for a long time.. trying my best.. now I can only leave this in gods hands to give me strength or help us. I know another strong woman will feel this letter deeply… you’re not alone.. it’ll get better whatever you choose as long as god is by your side to guide you. Don’t ignore his sign if he’s trying to tell you to stay or go 🤞🏼