Well. I don’t know how to explain this. I honestly want the top tier of glow admins and anyone who works for them to see this.

Tw drug use and abuse

Seriously TW

I came here in a desperate time of my life. I was completely isolated and I was scared for my life. I wasn’t allowed to speak much less breathe. He didn’t think I was gonna talk to anyone on my period tracking app because he didn’t even know there was a forum here.

I was trying desperately to keep myself alive? Not thrown into sex trafficking. Trying to get away from someone who tried murder me multiple times.

I came here, anonymously…and I told all of you that I was on meth. I explained that I tried to quit, over and over again but when I did I was faced with absolute hell. I thought I would die.

I thought I had ruined myself, ruined my life, ruined my future, my soul. I was desperate, on a different realm of reality and trying so hard to quit.

What this community said to me, your words, the kindness and understanding I was shown. The educated guidance I was given.

Not a single person was rude to me in any way.

The things that were said to me, on this secret little <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">period app</a>, were the words I held onto as I endured the full hell of my last withdrawal.

I am 13 months sober 7 days ago.

And I love all of you, and I will never forget what the community of this app meant to me in the darkest part of my entire life so far.

I love all of you.

I know this is probably hard to believe. But I have so many friends now. Friends who work in mental health and drug abuse, friends that have been sober 10+ years. There’s more to it than this app and the people on it. I’m not trying to downplay anything.

But the words said to me on this app, they were things I repeated to myself over and over during my last withdrawal. They kicked me to it. It was the start to the rest of my life.

❤️ you have no idea how important it was.

Eta: 3 days later your comments have made me cry my eyes out. I’m so thankful for this community.

I hope you all know that I am well, my life has changed in ways I can’t even comprehend and I fully intend for my entire life to be this good.

Edited: glow pinned my post and that is SO cool 🤭❤️❤️❤️

So many of you are telling me that I’m being an example and, 🥺 I’m only almost 14 months in now.

If this is you now, struggling with addiction, reach out to the community. AA/NA (no AA and NA do not care what your addiction is, it doesn’t have to be alcohol or narcotics.)

get a sponsor. If you’re serious about quitting, your hand will be grabbed so fast. There’s a whole community of people who will accept and love you and it is powerful. I love you and I hope you choose to join that community. Go exactly as you are.

My first day was 12 hours sober in AA. ❤️ they did not judge.

ETA: I was 14 months sober yesterday 😌

I’m putting my user name up now, because I did not know how this would be perceived and there’s still a little shame in me for ever having put myself in a situation that could have ruined my life, even though I know it’s not my fault and I had no idea what was going to happen and my abuser warped my mind into believing I deserved all of it. I still blame myself a lot for a lot of things and I didn’t want drugs to be associated with the name you see on this app. But I realized that I actually did something pretty cool, I made it out and I am not ashamed because I got sober and stayed sober and got my life together and I feel really strong and proud. So hi, hello. You know what user I am now lol

If you want to follow me I’ll post updates on my sobriety as time goes on ❤️ I would also like to talk about how I fell in love with sobriety again after getting sober. So if that’s something you’re interested in reading about you can come see it.

You can also reach out to me personally. I suck at replying to messages and I’ll try my best lol. but remember I’m still early on my journey and I am still learning myself. If you have questions about trying to get sober or how to reach out to AA/NA or how to get into detox I will try to answer to the best of my ability.

Eta: 16 months on the 17th of April!

Please do not try to send me gifts or money, that is so kind… I don’t know how people can be so kind like that, it’s incredible. I literally couldn’t believe it. You guys are amazing human beings.

But I am doing well and I don’t feel like deserve it. Please send it to a charity for women escaping domestic violence or anything like that. I could not believe that people were sending me wish lists and requesting to send money.

Please no❤️ you are a god send but if you send me that I will deny it. It feels wrong and I hope you understand 🥺❤️ give it to Womens shelters, homeless shelters. My heart doesn’t feel right taking any money.