My bd is gone for work trip and will be gone for 4 months. I work nights. Three 12 hour nights and two 8 hour nights a week. My mom has him at night while I’m at work but when I come home she goes to work. I’m so exhausted. My mental health is not ok. I feel bad cause I’m too tired to play with my 2 yr old most days. I try my best to push through. And then I’m constantly worried my bd will cheat on me again. I’m taking vitamins that are supposed to help my anxiety, but nothing works. Constantly feeling ready to end my life. I would never ever do it. Just have the feeling a lot. Any advice? (I can’t afford a therapist). Anyone going through long distance with their bd?