I honestly feel weird like why the hell did I dream of this person. Before my husband(not actually married just have kids together and been together for 4years) I was with this guy we were in school together from sophomore to junior year(I left the last semester) and I was completely and utterly in love with him(Yes I know we were only 16 but I had never tried to be in a relationship before I was a virgin till I got with my husband at 17 and still was 4months away from 18 before we did anything lol) but we started talking on Snapchat when I called him a hoe and he said he could be my hoe and then he started calling me a booty call but it was all jokes cuz he was never a hoe like the whole time we were in school together he dated one girl who was like 4ft tall and then they broke up summer before sophomore year, and I was never a booty call. But we were a perfect match our communication skills were amazing we were always there for each other and their was never any jealousy( idk if that was because we weren’t ever official) but we held hands he would hold my and hug me out at places, took me to events like everyone thought we were a couple and we were the schools perfect couple, we only had one argument and that’s cuz he thought I lied to him about being a virgin because his friend told him I went to a party and slept with someone but I couldn’t tell him what happened because I felt guilty(my dads girlfriend had a twin brother he was 26 so 10yrs older than me and my dad told me to go to the party with him and the dude drugged me I couldn’t remember most of the night I remember telling him no multiple things but he did what he did and that’s all I remember was waking up to things that were mortifying and I just couldn’t tell anyone cuz I felt like it was my fault due to drinking) but to continue after that argument we went back to us until one night he asked me to come over and I told him I was in love with him and wanted to know if he felt the same way his excuse of not wanting to be in a relationship was I was to tall(he was 6’2 and I’m 5’3) and I then stopped everything I couldn’t continue what we had cuz I was hurt. Well my step mom adopted me and I went to a new school and then met my now boyfriend/husband/baby daddy. Well these last 2yrs since we had our first kid has been nothing but putting me down and using money against me, but then we have our really good months so I stay, well this week I turned 21 and went out and he told me he was gonna take my kids from me cuz I can’t be a mom(I’m with them 24/7) and all week he’s just been calling me names saying everything coming out of my mouth was a lie like won’t even let me talk unless he wants to have sex. But I feel absolutely terrible cuz I had a dream of the guy before him and this guy telling me that everything was going to be okay and that we were together after I left my husband and I just feel guilty like I cheated on my husband In my sleep.