I’ve recently been experiencing some medical issues. Long story short I had for surgery to repair a non healing wound on my buttock and it turns out I have a fistula. So they stitched me up and put a “marker” so it’s like a string with a rubber band on the end. But the rubber band part goes into my butt crack. I have an appointment with a colon doctor to help with the fistula situation but now I’m at home with this contraption on my butt and I’m trying to heal from my incision and I’m just defeated. I feel worse than when I went into surgery. I’m trying to tell myself that this isn’t forever and the next doctor will help me but I’ve just been in my head and it’s hard trying to do normal things and feel normal when you just don’t feel like you are. And every now and then I get a hopelessness feeling where I tell myself no doctor can help me and I’m going to be like this forever and never feel normal again. Any uplifting comments or similar stories would be appreciated