We tried for quite a while for our first & we’ve been trying for our second for quite a while now.

Im mostly just posting as a way to get my feelings out.

I had an extremely drawn out miscarriage experience at about 7.5w in July of 2022. I didn’t have my period again until 6 months after my miscarriage. We started trying again as soon as my cycle returned and it’s been rough. My due date just passed last week and I kept having a feeling that I was pregnant again. I was (am) extremely nauseous. Just a few days ago I got about 5 very faintly positive tests two days in a row at around 16&17dpo, then the next day I got a negative and started my period. I only let myself believe I was pregnant for about 30 minutes bc I didn’t want to get too excited incase it didn’t darken. I know it was a chemical & a lot of people think it should be easy to get over, but I’m just so tired of losing.

I’m literally so sick of going through the motions, feeling like I’m pregnant, being sick for even longer than my pregnancy lasts, etc. only for it to end in fucking blood.