Been dealing with this guy for five months..long distance i would go see him sometimes and he came to see me once. I always put in all the effort making the convos flow talking about a future together and he just did nothing and i still kept giving it a chance. He doesnt like calls or ft and i wanted those but sacrificed it for him bc i really liked him..he doesnt want a family and thats a major dealbreaker for me i still gave him a chance. He gets busy on weekends and cant even give me the most simple basic thing in the world..communication and when i bring it up im the argumentative monster. He literally dumped me over the weekend bc i mentioned it trying to see how we can make this work better bc i need communication esp if we are far away. I feel played. He's so quick to give up and here i am still fighting for it for what? Im literally a fucking idiot. I dont know whats wrong with me but i fall for this type of stuff every time. Everyone around me is happy and finding their person and i cant because obviously im too much. I hate that i cant just see my worth in the moments and walk away. I hate that i let him have all that power feeling over me. Most of all i fucking hate myself for allowing myself to see a futures with guys that always make me feel like being happy and married and starting a family is within reach but i will never get to it. It fucks with my head so bad sometimes i just dont even want to keep putting myself through it