My name is Jamie and I'm 30 years old. I have 4 beautiful children and I've been married for 8 years. After having 3 kids and 4 years of marriage my husband surprised me with news that he is worried he is into men and might want to be a woman. I have nothing against trans or gay people but I was still so shocked and heartbroken. We have been trying to make our sex life and marriage some how work with all the new things he's into but when it comes right down to it he's just not attracted to me anymore and he has no interest in sex with me. It's been rough and it's hurt me deeply and my self esteem has been non-existent. Now I'm trying to get my sexual energy to wake back up again. I want to feel sexy and beautiful and finally have a much needed orgasm or many orgasms. I've never experimented with sex toys and my husband has never allowed me to buy or try any but now I'm going to try to get some somehow, hopefully with this wishlist and the help of all the woman in the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> community that may understand what I'm going through. I can't purchase these things with my cards or money in my accounts without my husband seeing and if I could have one gifted to me from this wishlist it would be discreet enough that I could keep it as my little secret. I haven't had any type of orgasm in 14 months ... I'm desperately hoping this works and someone will help me feel sexy and beautiful and satisfied. I will send thank you gifts in return and I will be so grateful. I hope this all wasn't too much information and I hope I don't sound trapped as I feel. Thank you and I hope we can be gift buddies ❤️