Life after DEPO DEPRESSION PROVERA

I hate that I got on this so young now that I’m older idk how to handle the negative emotions it’s been years since the shot I have regular periods  so I don’t know what’s going on. I’ll even track my ovulation on three different ovulation apps. I’ll even have sex the whole week of my ovulation window and still no baby. Like even right now. I’m waiting for my period and I know that it’s going to come, but I do want to think that I am pregnant which I feel like it’s making me crazy. I hate feeling like a robot. I really feel like I can’t express my feelings here on this app it’s been a big help but have anyone going through this experience ??? and ended up having kids Please let me know. Please feel free to message me and talk I’m always here .