I have an almost six week old and am being so tortured by my PTSD from his birth. It started on a Sunday night and lasted until Tuesday morning and now every week like clockwork I start to relive it every Sunday. I have a therapist and I’m trying so hard to talk about it and not drown in it but tonight is a hard night. It ended in a C-section and I’m still physically not feeling better, my baby is so fussy this week and isn’t nursing well, and my 5 year old twins want me to take care of them and I just can’t. I just don’t want this trauma and I wish I could feel better.

Just had to say it to someone. ❤️