Any support groups for women in DV

I was kicked in my stomach last year by my husband during an argument and him rushing out of the house after he kicked me. I fell to the floor instantly it was like a big bomb went off inside of my stomach . …. I took his sorry a$$ back like a fool with the promises of change and counseling. I look at him and I am so hurt that he did this and with me like it’s ok now. I guess it’s my fault for constantly taking him back. Currently he has been doing more emotional abuse to me. I bring up the counseling because he never does. He says the kick to my stomach was last year and I can’t hold him accountable for that and he can’t help me heal from past trauma because he feels like he is doing an amazing job …. We are now separated and of course he blames me for this as well. Said I am the one messing things up and he’s a great husband father etc etc. idk why I try and hold on to someone that does not love me because a narcissist will have you second guessing yourself.