I got off birth control at the end of Sept 2021. My first pregnancy was in March/April 2022, resulted in a very painful chemical miscarriage. Second pregnancy in September 2022 but I was bleeding for a month, was determined to be a likely ectopic and the hospital wouldn't let me leave unless they stopped it. At the ER visit it turned out I also had an infection and they gave me an initial dosage for it but I was to follow up with my OB. I followed up the next business day (3 days after ER) got blood drawn and left a sample for the infection and more blood work on day 8 or so. THREE weeks go by and nothing! I STILL had an UTI (which had been asymptomatic) and you know I'd bleed for like 5 weeks, so was definitely already weak but they didn't bother to send a prescrip for the infection instead waited for the blood work to "come back" (WEEKS, REALLY?!), nor did they bother letting me know my HCG levels were still rising when they finally did get the results. At my follow up is when they finally got/communicated these things to me and sent a prescription for the UTI. To add to my already weakened and emotional state, the OB, who I'd been seeing for 5+yrs and knew I was trying to conceive and had cleared me, says you need to lose some weight that's the cause. Mind you I had to keep reminding her a gazillion times, that it wasn't a miscarriage, it was a termination and that the ER had determined it was likely ectopic and not viable regardless. The ER room paperwork, which I had emailed to them weeks prior, noted all this but she didn't bother referring to it. To her she didn't need to, she already had the answer, my weight was the issue and that was it.

I switched OB, with the new OB, came new blood work, ultrasounds and referrals. My HCG dropped to 0, my ultrasounds had a mass in my left tube and she referred me to fertility places and a surgeon. Fertility place does more blood work and ultrasounds, blood work is good although now I am prediabetic (yay) and the ultrasound confirms mass which appears to be hydrosalpinx but they want to do an HSG (dyed x-ray) to confirm it before recommending removal/surgery. I get put on some VERY strong antibiotics to the point the pharmacist asks if I'm getting heart surgery. These things made me so nauseous and unable to sleep/elevated heart rate. I get the procedure done which was excruciating for me and a bit alarming bc the nurse practitioner that performed it said "I see you got your left tube removed." I responded with no and she backtracked a bit and added no I see your chart here and see you still have it. I'm cursing up a storm in the midsts of pain and she still can't see my left tube. They put more dye and a balloon trying to force some dye to my left tube, no luck, just more pain. I follow up with my fertility Dr a few days later and she notes the HSG was inconclusive and that tubes can spasm/close which seems to have been the case for the procedure. She doesn't want to redo it bc radiation and still gives me an all clear to continue TTC, noting that at this point she doesn't recommend surgery but that we can do another procedure after my next period which forces a camera up into my tube but that for this one I would be sedated. The fertility Dr had already cleared me to continue TTC but my husband and I were playing it safe. The past year has been emotionally taxing on both of us, and going through more losses didn't feel manageable until we had answers... which we still don't have.

So here I am, 36 in limbo-ish but back to trying because time and I want children so very badly. I'm back to hoping I finally get to meet them and keep telling myself all the pain and heartache will be worth it, if I get to meet them. Will know in a few weeks if our TTC efforts have taken off, if not, more testing in my future, along with fertility ovulation meds.

I wish us all luck and that we may all get a positive, positive where we meet our children!