Last night my boyfriend forced me into sex I was too intoxicated to even understand what was going on there’s bits of the night which I don’t even remember but he was on top for hours he held me down with one hand on my wrist and the other on my neck he chocked me very hard I felt like I couldn’t breathe It felt like I was in and out of sleep I tried to tell him a few times to stop that I didn’t want to but he wouldn’t this went on for hours he pushed me onto the floor and aggressively held me down he kept slapping me hard on the ass which has left a big bruise it felt like it was never going to end he put handcuffs on me and threw me all over the house this isn’t the first time he’s done things like this it’s been going on for a year since we met I tried to confront him today and he says it’s my fault Because I didn’t say no and that I looked like I was enjoying it I told him that he took advantage but he’s acting like the whole thing isn’t a big deal I love him but I can’t carry on like this